I Need to Leave

 Many years ago I owned a condominium in Adams Point in Oakland. I remember sitting at my desk. Surfing the net. And the thought came to mind. I need to leave.

I need to leave.

I should have left.

I should have left Oakland at that moment and gone far away.

Somewhere else. Somewhere else very different from Oakland.

I ignored the feeling. I stayed where I was. And to this day I'm still in Oakland.

Now, many years later I realize that I should have listened to my inner feelings. I should have left. I'm wondering where I would be now if I had left when I got that urge so many years ago.

Now, many years later, I'm feeling that urge again. Maybe I should leave. Despite the fact that I feel established here, I should leave.

I get the feeling that we will not grow spiritually if we do not leave our birthplace. To remain is to become stagnant. To become a laggard.

To me, to remain in the place of birth is to strengthen it. Maybe it does strengthen it. It also strengthens our stagnation. So we really do need to leave our birthplace. We need to grow.

After we have grown we can return to our place of birth and we will see it in a different light.

I'm feeling that urge again. I need to leave.

This time I will heed my feeling. I will leave.